boy, is it stiflingly hot in austin, texas!
quite the creative dampener….. but we’re sleepily moving on through the oppressive muggy air to squeeze out some honest music. it is one of the slower processes i have gone through. much patience and just a lot of readjusting to the pace. this is the only way to write these kind of ‘songs’, if that’s what you can call them.
funny, at this moment in the project it is conjuring up a dj shadow vibe for me. highly unlikely, but something about it is making me think of him. lots of sound-scapes and musical ‘experiences’, that ease in and out of one another, not so much structured songs. it’s really dreamy…… fitting with the atmosphere.
speaking of dreams, i have been having nightmares since i got here. not boogey man scare-scapes, but more a cleansing of the last few months of life as i have known it. it’s been a little crazy. self-inflicted, i must admit. so now, the fall-outs are these nocturnal dialogues that i probably should have been airing in the cognitive hours, instead of, say, getting drunk or generally avoiding my feelings on the situation……. or not, in some cases. the screaming matches and unsolicited sex can stay in parallel universe, thanks.
i guess it’s been necessary, as i am feeling the calmest, most rested and probably the sanest that i have in quite some time. ah, we won’t go into the processes again, but i am obviously a typical case study separation victim. duh. you think you can do it all in an original fashion to the normal avenues, rewrite the book. you only convolute the journey, making it longer and basically more confusing, before ending up at the same unavoidable outcome as everybody else. why did i think i’d be any different.
so, anyway. the last two days of songs have been based around these themes. all about just sitting with your own thoughts and finding love in solitude. sigh.